Not Letting Myself Hate Physics

When I found out that I could major in a joint Physics and Philosophy major, I think I might have slightly forgotten about the sheer effort and discipline that it would take to do it, willpower which I entirely do not have.  Yeah, I took high school physics, and I did enjoy it, definitely more than I enjoyed any of the other sciences that I took. I'm fascinated by space, and quantum theory, and I find relativity so interesting, and the fact that the laws of the universe that we take for granted can be expressed mathematically - that absolutely blows my mind. Physicists are like explorers trying to understand our universe, and math is the language of the universe. And so, romanticizing the university industry, I decided to take physics and maths courses in my 2nd year of college. I last studied math 2 years ago and physics 5 years ago.  It's really really difficult and I'd be lying if I said I was enjoying myself. I don't understand a thing about what's going on. The...