When I found out that I could major in a joint Physics and Philosophy major, I think I might have slightly forgotten about the sheer effort and discipline that it would take to do it, willpower which I entirely do not have. 

Yeah, I took high school physics, and I did enjoy it, definitely more than I enjoyed any of the other sciences that I took. I'm fascinated by space, and quantum theory, and I find relativity so interesting, and the fact that the laws of the universe that we take for granted can be expressed mathematically - that absolutely blows my mind. Physicists are like explorers trying to understand our universe, and math is the language of the universe. And so, romanticizing the university industry, I decided to take physics and maths courses in my 2nd year of college. I last studied math 2 years ago and physics 5 years ago. 

It's really really difficult and I'd be lying if I said I was enjoying myself. I don't understand a thing about what's going on. The module is focused on tedious work and getting a decent grade after hours of mind-numbing lectures. Everyone I've talked to who took it last year says something along the lines of "it's not gonna get any better" and "drop out before you can't." Why does school take everything you enjoyed and make you resent it? Why is everything about grades rather than cultivating a fascination with the content of the class? 

Basically, if I don't find a way to enjoy physics, I won't be able to take it anymore. So, I'm gonna teach it to myself and make myself appreciate physics. And I'm gonna document it all here!

See you soon :*